For years, I struggled with giving myself permission to be the creator of my own life.
It didn’t always show up in loud ways. It wasn’t that I didn’t think I was smart or gifted. In fact, I’ve always known I’m brilliant. But what I didn’t know was how much I had come to rely on other people’s voices—even when mine was loud, clear, and absolutely right.
And it showed up most in my business.
I always felt like the experts had more insight about what I should be doing than I did. And to be fair, many of them were insightful. I had coaches. Mentors. Consultants. People I paid thousands of dollars to help me grow, structure, and elevate. I was learning and implementing. I was downloading blueprints, building out strategies, and asking all the “right” questions.
And I grew. I gained knowledge, confidence, tools, and frameworks. But there was one thing I didn’t gain: peace.
Because the more I asked for guidance, the more I started waiting for permission.
It became my norm—before launching something, before saying yes to a new idea, before pivoting, before trusting my instincts—I needed someone to say: “Yes, that’s good. You can do that.”
It didn’t matter that I had been praying. That I had journaled about it. That I had mapped it out and it made perfect sense. I still felt like I needed one more person’s okay. Just one more professional nod to validate what I already knew.
When the Expert Voices Got Louder Than Mine
That—that—is the moment I realized I was no longer leading myself.
I had become so full of voices that I could no longer hear my own.
And my voice? She’s the one who built this from the ground up.
She’s the one who heard from God.
She’s the one who started before she had it all figured out.
But she had gotten too quiet.
I remember the exact moment it hit me. It was early 2024, and I had just gotten off a group coaching call. Everyone was sharing strategies, updates, and ideas, and I had a pit in my stomach the entire time.
Not because the information was bad—it wasn’t. It was helpful, even.
But it didn’t feel like mine anymore.
It felt like I was borrowing everyone else’s answers to questions I hadn’t asked.
Like I was dressing my business in someone else’s clothes.
Like I was shrinking to fit inside a vision I had outgrown.
That was the moment I knew:
No one else was going to give me permission to be myself. That had to come from me.
Giving Myself the Only Permission That Mattered
And it was scary.
Because when you stop waiting for permission, you also lose the buffer of blame.
If something goes wrong—you can’t say, “Well, so-and-so told me to.”
If something falls apart—you can’t hide behind a plan someone else co-signed.
You’re fully responsible for your brilliance and your mess.
And that level of ownership was something I had to grow into.
So I made a radical decision:
I shut down every single coaching program I was in.
Every single one.
I deleted the logins. I removed myself from the groups.
I told myself, “If God, wisdom, and experience can’t show you the next right step—then it ain’t time for the next step.”
It was time to get quiet enough to hear me again.
What Came After the Noise Was Gone
That decision changed everything.
Today, I hear my voice clearly.
I know when it’s me talking—and when it’s a script I picked up from someone else.
I can feel the difference between inner alignment and outer applause.
I know what it feels like to say yes from conviction, not fear.
And the truth is, I still believe in mentorship. I still believe in wise counsel. I still believe in learning and growing in community. And I may absolutely choose to work with a coach again in the future.
But the difference is:
I won’t be waiting for their permission.
Because I don’t need it.
And neither do you.
Sis, You’re Allowed
You are allowed to:
- Launch that thing you’ve been dreaming about
- Say yes to something that doesn’t have a roadmap
- Walk away from strategies that no longer match your soul
- Trust your gut, even if no one else understands
- Lead yourself—even if you wobble
- Change your mind—even if you already paid the deposit
You don’t need permission to honor your brilliance.
You don’t need permission to trust your gifts.
You don’t need permission to build the life that makes your heart feel full.
You just need you.
What I Know for Sure
When I stopped waiting for permission, I started walking in power.
Not a loud, showy power—but a quiet, unshakable one.
The kind of power that lets me rest without guilt.
The kind of power that lets me pivot with ease.
The kind of power that feels like peace.
And it’s yours for the taking.
💭 Ask Yourself:
Where in your life or business are you still waiting for someone else to say yes—when your spirit already has?
💌 Your Invitation:
If this resonated with you, I want to invite you to join me inside the Slower, Wealthier, Happier journey—where we give ourselves full permission to create a life we love, one aligned decision at a time.
Subscribe to the blog or join the Wealthy Women Conversations Facebook group and let’s keep this conversation going.You don’t need permission to start.
Just begin.
Slower, Wealthier, Happier 
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